wow, I havn't updated this in forever and a day. I guess I'll be doing it more, though, because livejournal disabled

I still want him so badly...when will all of this end???

I'm basically all back on my livejournal now, so for the latest in my life, go there. I'm keeping the pitas acount around for more personal entries, since not as many people read it. ta!

they're home. my days of being an only child are gone. Becca is covered in piercings. they look great. Sam looks like a page out of history. total disco reject look. Rara looks exactly the same. Miles has short hair and no more facial hair. Alex looks....well groomed.
wow.
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Current Music: K's choice--not an addict

Well you can imagine my excitement at going to see the Indigo Girls, as I don't like to admit it but I'm a giant closet fan. it sorta ruins my "tough guy" image but...what can I say? I confess, I like folk!! I went with a group of friends, and got lawn seats so that we could picinic. Wolf Trap is an excellent picinic venue, and no matter how far away you are from the house, the sound system is spectacular. as it was, we were pretty close to the house, and had a great view. (Or would have, if these two girls sitting in front of us would have stopped dancing and sat down..grr...) The opening act I admit I had never heard of. They're called K's choice, and are from belgium. there was an excellent short write up about them in the program, but I think my mom accidentally threw it away...so I'll try and tell you what I remember. It was started by a brother a sister, and all I remember name wise is that the sister's name is sarah. she was the lead singer, and boy do I ever want to have her children. she was adorable, and had a voice to die for, both singing and speaking. they had a fresh original sound that I really enjoyed, and lots of variety in who was playing what instrument. their lyrics were very imaginative. if I could make one criticism, it's that their drummer didnt do much varriation. it seemed like the same pattern at different speeds for each song. they didn't talk to much except to thank the audiance profusely between every song, but I much prefer that. I'm not a huge fan of bands that talk to the audiance more than necessary (*cough*westboundtrain*cough*), unless they have something worthwhile to say. The Indigo Girls took the stage to thunderous applause. they played songs from their new album become you which was great, as well as a mixture of old favorites and crowd pleasers such as shame on you, least complicated, closer to fine, power of two, and chicken man. they got sarah from k's choice to sing with them on closer to fine, and they changed guitars between every song. I've never seen so many beautiful guitars. the band that backed them up was out of control. I wish I could remember all their names. one of them played accordian, whistles, keyboard and percussian alternately. talent like nobody's business. the drummer was brady blade, and she tore up like no other. an excellent excellent drummer. I want to be her. their bassist was also top notch. every so often emily and amy would stop singing the chorus of a more popular song and have the audiance sing it, which was awsome. emily told some adorable stories and gave a nod to a woman who had given her a pedicure the day before. Amy told a story about getting free gibson guitars at a club very far down south that was attached to a gibson factory. they closed the set with galileo[i], of course, to tremendous applause and screaming. only one tiny criticism: they didn't play g. they apparently played it on the 29th, and I went the 30th. but thats OK, because they played all my other favorites. It was highly enjoyable, and I even bought myself an Indigo Girls muscle teeshirt. very cool stuff. bottom line:If they stop by your town, see them.and buy a K's choice CD!

we're going to indigo girls tonight, booyah!!
interesting developments in my secret crush situation now:some very interesting people know about it, and I'm trying to decide if thats good or bad. but he sat on me today. yay!
Im a pathetic idiot. yay for me. anyway...wow is school loading up projects at the last minute, or what? those cunts....
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Current Music:Me first and the gimme gimmes--different drum

Remember my new years resolution not to drink? remember how I kept it for a really long time, but then I went to Israel and they dont card there? remember how I decided to stop drinking when I came home? Ok well I was at a wedding last night, right?
Give me a break, it was a Jewish Wedding. you're SUPPOSED to drink or something. and I only had like three drinks....but never the less, I am a light wieght. I was pretty buzzed, and by buzzed I mean could not walk in a straight line. and had a lovely headache when I woke up this morning. so for me, THATS IT! No more drinking, ok? unless a peach margarita presents itself...or a first bellini....mmmmm.....first bellini....AUGH! No. No more drinking for me. Bad.
The wedding was lots of fun, I kept getting hit on by 26 year olds all night. I am Jailbait with a capital J. great stuff and margie's dress was beautiful. AIM wont let me on right now....grrrr....
things to look forward to:Thursday:Indigo girls!
sunday:Seniors come home! Raanan! Becca! Miles! Alex...>.< Rejy!!!
june 9th:gigs!
June 12:Last day of school!!!!!!
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Current Music:Fiona Apple--Criminal

I am, I know. mummy called me an exhibitionist. I'm a crowd whore, OK? Whenever I get up on stage, I just never wanna leave it!
today was spring concert. a cappella preformed, as well as the ensembles. (Note:WHY does he have to be so sexy? gooood his haaaaaands.....*drool*) 11th grade ensemble rocked really hard. Tina and I went on stage of course, true to our crowd whore natures. she not so much as I, I just wanted someone else up there with me. she was a great sport about it, and had a blast. we danced up a storm, and so did carni. Man I love him. schlaf rules forever of course.
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Current Music: Garbage--I would die for you

today was trip day. 10th grade got to go to a fuckin' Jewish History museum that was about as interesting as my toenails. however after that ordeal, we got to wander around inner harbour, which is a mucho fun place. Miri and I went in and out of shops, and made our way to city lights. last time I had been there, I had been wandering around in it in my star healer costume. ah, memories. anyway, we did a little shopping. I bought some eye makeup (surprise suprise. I'm such an eye makeup whore.) bought some candy, and stole a magnetic nose stud. ya know, I've been good. I Havn't shoplifted anything in a long time. but I really wanted the stud, and it was so tiny, and I've been trying to save money. so yeah, to everyone who I told the nose stud was real? sorry, I lied. it's fake. but hey, thats ok. it still looks cute.
we made a lot of progress in band practice today. elm street sounds pretty rockin', and everyone is starting to come together...I just feel the riffs need something else. thanks to schlaf for helping figure shit out, and the jacob and ricky for contstructive critiscism, and to tracy for being the best gym teacher in the world and supervising us crazy kids so we wouldnt get kicked outta the music room. vocally, I'm so happy with elm street. im a lot more happy with bloody mary now too, because we changed the "covered in blood" line to "where is your head" which I like a whole lot better. we need to fit in a bunch more practices before june 9th, but we're gonna pull it off. we're gonna rock down the house. ( I hope). we just need to decide on a set list for both shows ASAP.
Buffy season finale was a tear jerker...but I so predicted that that thing would make spike human. I swear.
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Current Music:The Smiths--there is a light that never goes out

went to IHOP with Macks and Max. Had much fun. now quizes.

Take the Which Spider-Man Character Are You? quiz by ZyberGoat

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Man oh man, do I ever love cast parties. actually yesterday was such a fun day. I got up fairly early to find a ride to the spoont. show, and ended up metroing and walking. it was at the maret fete, which was totally wack. the school looked like the Xavier institute for higher learning, man. I was expecting to see X-men at every turn. their show was awsome, and fandango was, as becky might say, "hilar". Alexandra was there, and so was Sadie. it was cool to finally meet her. she's really pretty. I love all the people in that band, they're all so ridiculously chill. Andy bought me a dime shirt, cause it had alice references in it. he's really sweet when he's not teasing me. then we went to spoont.'s second gig that day, at a steak off. which is sort of like a bake off, with steak. the steak was sooooo fucking good. then we went to a diner(go figure.) and then to Jacob's house, where I played with action figures. Then we went to the cast partay at the Lerner family fuckin mansion. the house is so unnecessarily long that he uses a razor scooter to get around. I ate pizza, played smash brothers, which I kicked collective ass most of the time. I got beat a few times, and of course got very angry. its so sad, that game is my life, I swear. then we watched Snatch, which fucking ROCKED! It is now one of my favorite movies. so well done. then we watched fight club, which was my first time watching it. all my attempts to watch it before had been foiled by my mother. anyway, it was so fucked up, I really loved it. most everyone had dropped off to sleep by the time we popped in Pulp Fiction, and Jacob and I decided to go to sleep. we've reached this point in our friendship where nothing can get awkward, and the fact that we're the opposite genders doesn't factor in at all. we just don't acknowledge it. so some people might'v though it was odd that we were sleeping together on the couch, but they'd never understand that we're so far from having any sort of sexual thoughts towards each other, especially since his girl rocks the casbah. we talked a lot about stuff like why I have low self-esteem. he used me as a pillow most of the night, which was mos def uncomofortable for me, but very cozy for him. we were lying there on the couch and I say all sarcastically "I wish I had a pillow." so he says "I wish you had...a normal heartbeat." so I smacked him. when we woke up today, we watched mortal kombat. its such an awful movie, but such a great movie at the same time. Yonni is THE MAN. he knows all the moves better than I do. anyway, I came home and slept for hours, then showered. now here I am.
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Current Music:New Pornographers--Mass Romantic

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Oh, like that was a surprise.

I feel like this is sort of sad:


I've been considering moving back to livejournal. should I?
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Current Music: Jump, little children--stay my hand

One acts were last night. needless to say I'm tired, but at least I finally got that shower I so desperatly needed. sorry if my smell offended anyone today, but hey, I did come to school in the clothing I slept in. Sexy, no?
anyway.....I can't believe they're over. but they went out with such a bang. Have I ever mentioned how much I love being on stage. whenever I get the chance to get up their, I never ever want to leave. I love the feeling I get that everyone is watching me. I love becoming someone else. I love to hear people chearing for me. I love my lounge singer costume. It was very well one of the happiest nights of my life, with all the flowers that everyone gave me, the hugs and kisses, the feeling of curtain call. nothing can ever top curtain call. its such a rush. its like...well in the olympics, at the end of Sarah Hughes's number, she just knew that she'd nailed it, you could tell by her face. That's sort of like how it fails. we did it. he hit the nail on the head. we are stars. I think I may have been the last one to finally get off the stage. the stage isnt as glamourous as one might think. there's the bright hot lights that make you swelter under the costumes, and the sticky horrific stage make-up thats itchy. there's the whole kissing someone you hate bit. there's the occaisional awful costume. but you take the good with the bad, and thats part of the fun of it. I love it.
Exit Chuck. and Exit Clair. and Exit Arionette.

Current Music:David Bowie--Oh! you pretty things!

Has anyone not seen spiderman yet? or wants to see it again? good. take me to go see it please?
3 things I want from this life:
an aviator cap and goggles, preferable with yellow lense.
Wings that change with my mood
to be able to pass the images in my mind onto paper
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Current Music: The Pixies--velouria

I havnt posted in a long time, I know. I've been really busy with rehersals. things are going pretty well with them, and I'm feeling really positive about monday.
but thats basically all I'm feeling positive about lately.
Here's a secret about me:If I look depressed and am staring off into space, I feel depressed. but if you ask my what's wrong, I'll look at you like you're an idiot, and tell you I'm just tired. because I never have any realy reason to feel sad, but sometimes I just get that way for weeks. and because there is no logical reason to feel sad, I feel ashamed about it, and get mad at myself for being that way. which never really helps much. but I digress.
secret crush, you wear my sanity. really, you do. before when I wasn't even sure how I felt, it was nothing much. now it seems like I like him more everyday. I don't even know why, either. I don't know whats wrong with me.
I've written some new songs lately, but I'm kinda iffy on them. I wrote one called Make a wish for tina, and she loved it.

ok this is important:I learned one of life's most valuable lessons from Paper Mario.
the lesson is thus: wishes that you make for your own benefit will never come true. but wishes that help others will. I thought that was cute when alex was playing them game, so I stopped making wishes for myself all the time. I make wishes a lot. eyelashes, or stars, or my personal favorite, the clock wish. when all the digits on the clock match up, you kiss the wall and make a wish. anyway, without giving much thought to it, I started wishing for someone else, and it came true. so that made me quite happy.
but then I felt alone. so then I felt sad again. I wish I had better control of myself.
I wish I could say the right things at the right time.
I wish I had a drum set.
right now, the song that best describes my mood is cocoon, by joydrop.
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Current Music:Joydrop--Cocoon

I have this thing. I hate being called cute. I hate it, ok? why? because when people call my cute, it's synnanomous with tiny, or clumsy or stupid. I don't want to be called cute, because cute is powerless. after bitching at Mazer about this once, he told me "well corin tucker is cute, and she's powerful." to which I responded "I'm not corin tucker." well hey, this quiz proves that, don't it?

Which Sleater-Kinney Girl Are You?

Current Music:Sleater Kinney--All hands on the bad one

Ocean city was such a fun trip. I wish I was still there right now with everyone on the board walk, eating thrashers fries and singing. Our hotel was fuckin posh. I was so shocked. for a school sponsered event, I was figuring some roach motel...but it was spectacular. and all of our balconies connected, so naturally we were running back and forth all night.
I am a terrible influence on good girls! I really really am. by the end of the trip sara and shari were cursing up a storm and yelling at authority figures. way fun. our choir is the most ADD choir in the whole world. really. oh lookie.

	*bard* a magician with enchanting musical abilities clever; artsy; fun
[Final Fantasy Tactics Job Class]

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current music:Radio Head--karma police

friday after school I had band practice. it went ok....I was dissapointed with how we sounded...but not too bad. Colleen really liked Bloody Mary, and Maritza liked Now it all makes sense (which I think I may re-title Carpe Diem). anyway, Sarah and Colleen slept over, but just as we arrived at my house, I realized my fatal mistake. I had left my songbook, a book that contains basically the very essence of my being, which has things in it that human eyes should never ever read....was missing. I had left it at school. In the band room. On top of the piano. SKREE! You can imagine my distress. But I shrugged it off, and said hey, I'll get it on monday. a fun filled weekend was had by all that included watching the DVDs of clueless and rock n roll highschool, and me getting a virus that caused me to lose my voice. anyway, Monday rolled around, and after prayer finally ended, I sprinted backstage, and into the back door of the band room. I flicked on the lightswitch and ran to the piano. it was not there. I searched on the floor, on the book shelves, the music stands, behind the drums, in the piano bench (which refused to close after I opened it)and it was no where to be found. I panicked. slightly. then I ran to the lost and found and searched through the neat line of books. it wasn't there. THEN I panicked. I never wanted that book to be read by anyone. it has songs from long ago that are embaressing to read, as well as diary entries, drawings and rants that are very personal to me. By lunchtime I was really stressed out, so Tina and Boy decided we should check the music room again, even though there was a class going on. Boy sprinted to the music room, but Mrs. Klotz called my name as I followed, and I turned around. "you were looking for Ms.Renken, right?" Yes, I had been! I ran over to her, and aksed breathlessly if she had seen my song book. she had. Maritza had it. THANK FUCKIN GOD! basically I knew she would read it. She's just the kind of person who would read something that you didn't want anyone to read. so I wasn't surprised when she called me later, to tell me that she had it, and had indeed read it. I actually didn't mind. of all people, I knew she'd be one to understand the stuff in there and just laugh it off. what was surprising was that she told me that she LIKED a lot of the stuff that was in it...and she wrote commentaries. I read them through..fun. I can't wait till next time I see her and we can talk about. anyway, my songbook is now back in my possesion, and I'm thinking of surgically implanting it to my hand so I don't ever lose it again.
GO BLUE TEAM!
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current music:The Cardigans--LoveFool

this week has been too long. me staying at school till 7, 7:30 is just taking it's toll on me. and it's dumb, I usually dont have to stay that late unless I have choir, cause play practice never ends that late, but I always go and watch the Marsha Bradys practice. they're so good. we're jamming with them tomorrow,and I'm feeling really self-concious that they wont like us. our band is GOOD. but we don't have it as together as they do. we can't tear eachother apart until everything is perfect for fear of hurting each others feelings. thats something we need to work on. I'm so bloody exhausted.
hey. My wrist has writing on it.
it says Pink?
blue!
pink?!
blue!!!
I wrote it there. not 40 seconds ago. I'm not sure why, I guess I just felt like writing on myself.
I saw Matt Triner today, and it just made me suddely realize how much I miss my friends. June 2nd, please get here faster? please? I miss becca so much.
I want to stab yediel. right in his big stupid face. he wonders why I hate him? today, we were trying to have TWATC rehersal in the music room, right? an it was Tina's first practice. but we didn't have everyone there, it was just me and Tina and Sarah. there were people running rampant in the music room as usual. anyway, we were trying to work on Sarah's song, and so I got off the drumset, and re-worked the harmonies that they had written. they sounded two high and tinish, so I made it lower. anyway, as we try to rewrite the harmonies, which believe me is hardly easy, Yedi starts making this racket on the drums. after asking him to stop politely a few times, he does. and he moves to the keyboard. and turns it up all the fucking way. and puts it on all these crazy settings and just starts smashing the keys. and he fucking WONT STOP. I don't know who the hell he thinks he's trying to impress. it isnt as if he hates Tina and Sarah like he hates me, he doesn't need to be cruel to them too. it was so fucking obnoxious. I even asked him politely a few times to stop, which was so unnecessary, as he was being the biggest dick. I've been going out of my way to try to be civil to the prick, but he's just such a fucking cunt. I like the song, and I hate to say it, but I think we may need to drop it. it's really just too slow and folky. I tried to make it more indie-ish by adding whispers in the chorus...maybe when we speed it up and add the other components of the band and come up with a better drum-beat it'll sound better. I hope so, cause I really don't want to drop it. anyway.
pink?
blue!
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Current Music: Dar Williams--the pointless yet poignant battle of a coed

I didn't actually need to stay after school for practice except for about 3 seconds to work on my song for Mazer. Then I kicked around, watched four-square and basically waited for Maritza to show up. She and I gossiped, then she, Ms. Renken and I all freestyled, because Jason was held-up with color war crap. Maritza decided to sing a song about how I a jail bait. so I sang back at her about how she wont leave me alone and keeps making fun of me for being a choir geek. It was really fun. After a while Jason showed up and I listened to them Jam. It's becoming an after-school ritual. That band is so chill, it's amazing. well anyway, I finally gave Jason back his coat, in exchange for an equally cool lucky charms watch.
anyway, we get to the meat of the day. Andrew, my beloved third husband delivers some unfortunate news. he wants to leave the walrus and the carpenter, on the grounds that he takes music too seriously, and feels he wont be able to enjoy himself till he learns not to. even though we have plans to have Tina drum in his stead, and I love her to death....it's going to be wierd without Andy. anyway....yeah....
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Current Music:Indigo girls--power of two

haha I will never give back this jacket. It's GREEN!I love green.
Ugh we had to run breakfast club blocking after school today and I actually had to kiss yedi. when we were writing down stage directions I wrote DO NOT VOMIT next to the kiss.
We tried to play foursquare after school today, but I sucked as I do at all sports, and so since ricky came to visit that day, he and I walked up to subway, then came back to school where I delighted in eating my sub very loudly in front of everyone who was still playing foursquare.
in hebrew class today, we got half the class to refuse point blank to take a test. Why, you may ask? Well there was material on the test that she never taught us. So we just sat there. It was spectacular. yay for SANETTA rebellion!
after the vomit inducing blocking rehersal I dropped in on marsha brady rehersal as I so frequently do. I broke a stool by sitting on it, living up to schlaf's new nickname for me, Liz "Ballance" Mazer. grrr. so I sat on cunningham, and he proceded to give me a crappy, though much needed massage. my muscles fucking ache. Maybe it's that effort I've been putting into gym class the past few days. I huuuuuuurt.
Ricky Ferry! listen to Bikini Kill!
-Chuck

current music:Sleater Kinney--I wanna be your joey ramone

I havn't written in a while. Sorry for slipping. I've been pretty damn busy with rehersals. Things are coming together well, but not fast enough I fear. May 13th fast aproacheth.
In other news, I had a pretty sucessful drum lesson with Ms. Renken today. I also got my hair cut on saturday. It's super short now, just under my ears. I stole Jason's jacket today. He thinks I'm giving it back tomorrow, but in truth he shall never see it again! hahaha! I love this jacket.
On friday the walrus and the carpenter may get to jam with the marsha bradys! How ace is that?
The percussion we're doing in choir sounds so....sexual. >.< Tina had to go and make it exagerated. hoo boy....

current music: The x-ray spex--Oh bondage, up yours!

I love my bois. they tried to shower with me after school. how cute.
further more, Maritza rules. I have never met a chika as cool as she is. she called me a slut. Blunt people rule. I was begging Jason to drive Tina and I to subway so we could eat before one-act practice but he had to work out. as if he needed to -_- anyway, he got Maritza to take us, and we gossiped and that was fun.
I love geeks. geeks are the best people in the world.
I feel bad for missing Mazer's rehersals. I need to check my messages more frequently.
I talked to Colleen today! we may have an anime marathon at her house friday night. that would rule very very much.
I hate Jewish History. what a waste of a class
the Israel Solidarity rally took place on the hottest day this year. I felt so disgusting afterwards. that's why I stoopped to showering at school. ick. school showers. c

current music: The Pogues--Lorelei

I'm Remy LeBeau
What X-Men Character are You?

but gambit is such a pussy!
better gambit than cyclops though, who is the ultimate pussy.

current musicLThe Cramps--I wanna get in your pants

practice today was much fun, and so was my very short drum lesson from Ms.Renken.
I drew Dominique Swain tonight. It took me forever. For those of you who don't know her, she played Lolita in the Jeremy Irons version. the photo that I copied it from is here, and the drawing is here. please tell me what you think?

Current Music: Ani DiFranco--Not a Pretty Girl

Schlaf was able to guess what the song was about! at first he thought mario ^_^ people can be so imaginative.
and now more about the plate of ketchup!
WeezerGeek87: how many interesting things have happened to anyone in school in the past 2 months
WeezerGeek87: um, none
DandEHighwayLass: a plate of ketchup hit me in the face at lunch?
WeezerGeek87: andrew got soaked with soup! much more food to surface area ratio.
DandEHighwayLass: it looked like he blew a load in his pants
WeezerGeek87: thanks for that graphic description, liz
DandEHighwayLass: anytime

current music:Dio--Rainbow in the Dark

so today was yom hashoa, meaning everything was all very depressing, and we had to go to mind-numbing holocaust learning workshops.
so during lunch, a big ghust of wind blew a paper plate of ketchup straight at my face. it mostly got in my hair, so my hair was stiff and sticky and smelled lick ketchup for the rest of the day. it was funny when it happened. but icky hair.
I have like....2 faithful blog readers. Boy and Schlaf. It's so cute. they talk about my vauge hints together. I wonder what they'd say if I said I thought I had a crush on someone....well boys, your next discussion group should be pretty red hot!
on the subject of Schlaf, I cleverly got him to admit something was wrong. ha!
the indigo girls are coming to wolftrap!!! may 29th and 30th!!! call me if you wanna go.
I really wanna have band practice soon.

current music:David Bowie--Andy Warhol

Mazer finally gave me my cuff back today, and it's missing a gem! GRRRRRR
in other news, we started learning the most fun song in choir today. Zombie Jamborie. Rockapella did it last year when we saw them in concert ^_^ it's really awsome. one-acts sorta killed choir. and sunday clique. and band practice. but hey, one-acts! I can't wait to start those rehersals. it'll be so much fun.
His last request, which was a song I wrote a couple nights ago, is such an embaressment to me. not because the lyrics suck or anything, because I'm really pretty happy with them. the subject matter is embaressing. and I was right, Tina was able to guess what it's about. It took her a few minutes, but she eventually got it ^^; everyone go read it, and tell me what you think it's about. and then you will laugh very hard at me when I tell you ^_^
Tina and I had much fun with our pre-choir melee rumble. I did most of the ass-whooping this time. she's really good when she plays as Zelda/Sheik. my best characters are Link or Young Link, Kirby, Samus and Mario. Ari L. completely destroyed me the other day, I didn't beat him once. he's always Mario. Mario is such an easy character to be good at. gyah. hopefully soon I will get some more controllers, and sonic. then I'm so getting the guys to get their ugly butts to my house for some serious tournaments.

current music: Labyrinth Soundtrack--Sarah

a fun and eventful evening out with friends Ilana, Ari R, Ari L, and Laura. went to see van wilder, which was very graphic and sophomoric, but a real stich. then we went to a restaurant and ordered yummy desserts. Ari R. told us something quite shocking. I'll respect his privacy and not repeat it. it was unexpected.
evenings with Ilana are filled with giggles. everything reminds us of some inside joke or another. it must be a pain for third parties to be anywhere near us. we'll say obscure things and burst out laughing. we ran into tali at Xando. I had my hood up, and it looks pretty dreadful. she was like whos that under there? and I took down my hood. she's so adorable and mean. we were leaving, and I'm putting my hood back up. I go "this thing makes me look like a retarded eskimo!" so she pulls the hood off me and goes "now you just look retarded!" quick witted people are great, arent they?

plane ride one was from tel-aviv to zurich. I mostly slept, and watched a little bit of Atlantis. it was really good, I'd like to see the whole thing sometime. dad was reading Mother Night. I got him hooked on Vonnegut. go me. Mom was reading A Prayer for Owen Meany. Jo's favorite, she needlessly reminded me. yeah I remember. Everything from my favorite movies, to passover, to the baltimore aquarium reminds me of her. thanks mom.
Zurich to Dulles is very long, but I didn't sleep at all. I watched Harry potter once all the way through, and twice saw about half of it, because my screen kept replaying it. I watched more bits of Atlantis, but still didnt get to see the whole thing. Read most of Carpe Jugulum. its pretty good. landing was really turbulent and everyone was puking. the Mazer family avoided any display of vomiting. we rule. I went up to the swiss air desk with my claim ticket after we got through customs and got our bags, and demanded my tweezers back. I love those tweezers. I'm glad they didn't just throw them out like when American Airlines finds things they dont want to allow on. Alex was devistated when they threw away his nail clippers over winter break. anyway, I got back my tweezers and came home.
alex and I almost bonded or something on the trip. but only when we went out at night. he didn't make a big deal over me drinking like he used to. he was nicer to me than usual. at Zanzibar, he kept telling me to hold in the smoke longer, to get a buzz. I was already kinda buzzed anyway. mmmm peach schnaps. too bad I'm back in America where I can't buy drinks. I should call miri and sleep now.

the pogues--dirty old town

I'm finally home. my head is spinning. I feel hungover.
hilights from trip:
the frequent yummy dinners at my cousins house. they have 7 dogs and 2 cats. yowzaa.
Zanzibar. a wicked nargila bar inside a tent that zohar took us to.
giraffe noodle bar, with the best desserts ever. we devoured a creme brule' in seconds flat, and ordered another. it barely hit the table before it too was gone.
batman beyond in hebrew. the same episode. three times. (we think israel only bought the rights to the first episode of it)
way too much shopping for my own good, including my brother and sam purchasing the girliest clothing ever.
a tan!
a hena tattoo of a bat on my shoulder blade. you know what bats say? the say SKREEEEEEEEEE!

current music:bikini kill--false start

I'm back at my cousins house. tonight, we go to see an Israeli rockstar. it should be fun. I'm listening to israeli music. wow.

current music:hayihudim(the jews)--sami chofshim

I made it through jerusalem alive, and now I'm in elat with friends and family. all is well and good. we had a delicious passover meal, and now im dead tired. Elat is goregous. So basically I just wanted to let everyone know that yes, I am indeed alive and well. No need to recast me. hahaha!!!!
I heart the twins frommer. this should be known.
Also, I got to see miles, raanan and becca, and that ruled. I missed them too much.
catch you cats on the flipside.

remember my celibacy? I'll quote Aladdin.

"ach it broke."

I. Made. The one acts. TWO of them! oh my...
in Mazer's I play a mysterious lounge singer.
In Becky's, which is a one act version of the breakfast club...I'm Claire. Yes. The prom queen. The one who got detention for ditching class to go shopping. As Marshall put it: "Liz, thats the polar opposite of your personality." Well thats a comfort. I havn't been this happy in a While. Call me Claire. Or Arionette.
I spent the afternoon with Miri. I love her to death. We watched the disney channel for a while. She made me two smoothies. Count em. Two. I love smoothies. Then we cut pictures from magazines, talked about how unsensual corn is, and talked about boys. I admitted to her the guy that I semi think I may want to hookup with. I never know my own feelings. I'm still looking for that guy who'll be David Bowie for me.

current music:The Afghan Whigs--Be For Real

Gyah. I wasn't nervous till after I sang. Then I was jittery for the rest of auditions, except when I was on stage. Suprisingly, the only time I wasn't nervous was when I was on stage. I used to feel so uncomfortable on stage. I'm glad I don't get as nervous as I used to.
but AUGH! the list goes up tomorrow. I have no clue who made it. Everyone at tryouts (nearly everyone) was phenomenal. I don't think I'll get a WINK of sleep tonight. I'm determined not to fall apart this time if I don't get in, though. I mean, the directors are my friends. They have a hardass job, and if they thought someone else was better, I can't make them feel worse for cutting a friend by going in to hysterics. Ah, acting. such a SOLID carreer.
Meow.

current music: The Clash--London is Calling

the GSA meeting was today at lunch. fun stuff. I was the only sophomore in attendance. everybody else was a freshman. I was a drifter. it was an OK meeting.
also, today we had two of the four one-act auditions. I signed up for all four so I could stand a chance of getting into at least one. Today was stoil and Becky auditions. I think my stoil audition went better than my Becky audition. we shall see, we shall see. Tomorrow, Mazer and Schlaf.
After auditions, Jason's band The Marcia Bradies preformed for us. they fucking rock. Its pretty wierd having a band compiled of a student, his gym teacher and his gym teacher's friend, but the band is wonderful. Ms. Renken is a kickass drummer.

current music: the doors--riders on the storm

ONE ACT AUDITIONS TOMORROW AND THURSDAY, 5-7 O'CLOCK! GAAAHHHH!

oh man...I signed up for all four of them. If I don't get in to at least one, I'm going to have to sleep my way to the top.
My monologue is all memorized, and it doesn't sound too bad. I need to sing a sultry song for Mazer's audition apparently. I'm torn between Fever and Come Rain or Come Shine. I'll probably do Fever. It's sexier.
DandEHighwayLass: is it wrong to use sex to get something i want?
jr g l12 31: sometimes
DandEHighwayLass: damn
DandEHighwayLass: you're a lousy conciences, chewy.
(I heart Julie.)

current music:David Bowie--Golden Years

Today was supposed to be the first GSA meeting for 2nd lunch ever. I was excited, because I always wanted to join the GSA, but there was no GSA group for my lunch period. So there was a meeting today. In room 124. But when I got there, it had been canceled. They reschedualed it for wednesday. There is really no point in having a GSA at JDS anymore, anyway. There were only two homosexual students in our school, and they both graduated. The only people who come come close are the kids who just havn't realized that they are gay yet, or the kids who are bisexual because its trendy. Fuck me with a cantelope, but isnt that lovely? Oh, and then there are the people who have had brief conversations with me on the topic of sexuality, and have forever had their views changed. Meaning I don't believe in a set sexuality. If looks, status, race, religion and all those other variables don't bother a person when falling in love, I don't see why gender should make that much of a difference either. I once had a crush on a girl. I once made out with a girl. I don't consider myself bisexual. Or heterosexual. I'm just...sexual. Multi-sexual. No preferance.
I finally started reading Deadeye Dick today when I was in the tub. It's wonderful so far.
I'm sure that my senior jersey will either say Easy Does It or Twiggy Stardust.

current music:David Bowie--Moonage Daydream

quiz result entry *pukes* I know I know...quizes are evil...

I'm the snake print Doc Marten...
I'm a wild child and I live on the edge baby!

Which Doc Marten are you?
(by *coffeebean*)

You are most like Kate who was struck with an axe! Created by Thren. Which Gashlycrumb Tiny are you?

current music:siouxsie and the banshees--israel

we were so loud and obnoxious at lunch today. It was great.
I talked to alex this morning. We called him cause today is his 18th birthday. Its a little scary. I can't think of him as 18. He's having a good time, and his in-grown toenail is subsiding. So that's good news. In about two weeks I'll be flying over there to see him for passover (egad:passover in two weeks? shoot me.)And he and the fam and I, as well as the Frommer twins will be staying in a little apartment near our cousins. It will be like that time we went skiing with the Frommers! good times.....
periods suck. I need to cut out my own uterus.

current music: Shonen Knife's cover of anyway you want it

My heart was bugging me a lot today. It hasn't really bothered me in a while, but today it felt all leapy for the majority of the day. Made me feel like I needed to cough. I also couldn't see very well today. I think it may be related to allergies. So anyway, whenever my heart bugs me, I always joke about my own death. MVP is a really common and minor heart condition, so I know nothing serious is going on, and that gives me liscence to joke about it I guess. So I said to Miri what do you want in my will? and she says she wants my makeup collection. Freedenboy wants my name. What's up with people wanting to be Mazers? Like Ilana, who just called to get my mom to help her learn to drive. Anyway, I decided I wanted all of Miri's stuff from her will, so I'd just move into her room, and bottle her essence. and I think in all seriousness for when I actually die, I will leave my rubber color-chaning in the sun ring to Shira Pilarski. How funny would it be if say, 90 years from now i died and Shira got this package with a little rubber ring in it. Ok maybe it was funnier in my head.
Benjy is starting a rap group with me and Ami. I need to think of a rap name.
I wish the seniors would come home. Israel is a baaad place to be right now. Stuff happens everyday there now. The head-honcho Rabbi of Israel and all the world declared tomorrow a national fast-day to show sympathy. I never fast on fast days. I think fasting is a masochistic ritual. The point is so you are only concentrating on prayer, but if you can't ear, I think most people mainly concentrate on hunger. Plus fasting makes me faint. I'm such a delicate flower.
If I were a carebear, my name would be bleeding heart.

current music:Ani DiFranco--little plastic castle

basically I think everyone should do a self-evaluation tonight. get your facts straight, look at people as they are and not as you want to see them. stop mangling details. realize that deep down, people generaly have good intentions. drop grudges. stop being petty. tell someone you love them.

current music:dar williams--the pointless yet poignant, crisis of a Co-Ed

I got a condolance card for Joplin from Mr.Miller and Ms.Agzigian thanking me for Joplin's old supplies that I gave them. The science department rules. they're so sweet.

>:@ I wish Ilana would hurry up and get here. Im mucho bored.

current music:Garbage--the trick is to keep breathing

today was pirate day! for me and Miri at least. We dressed piratey and said Argh! all day. Twas fun.
last time I was at Tower, I picked up this postacrd with a mermaid on it. It was an Evian add. the mermaid has the most gorgoues hands ever. And then I realized that I always take notice of people's hands. I must be attracted to hands or something. without think, I could probably tick of the names of ten people and describe their hands to you. I think I will.
me:my hands are small, but they fit me, because I'm small. I also have really long fingers, usually with rather long nails. I have a big bump on my right middle finger from holding pencils wrong. My hands are really really smooth, but get sweaty easily.
alex:his hands are huge, and hairy. he also has really long fingers, but very short nails, which he trims too frequently. like me, his hands are freakishly soft, and get sweaty easily.
dad:his hands are big and hairy too, but fatter than alex's. his palms are really smooth like me and alex. he has little stitchy frankenstien scars on the base of his palms to his wrists from an operation.
Miri:miri has very long fingers, that hyperextend. her hands are pretty soft, the nails are usually medium in length. they're double jointed. all of them.
Max O.:his hands are bizare. they're big for his body, and thin-fingered, but his second set of knuckles are enormous, so that his rings are usually lose around his fingers so that they fit over the knuckles.
Ilana:her hands are like mine, but her fingers arent as long. they're soft. her thumbs are stubby like mine.
Miles:he has cartoon hands. they fascinate me. I spent a lot of time backstage tracing his palms and fingers with my fingers. he's got really long fingers, and his hands are really calloused.
Tammy and Colleen: they go together because they're really similar, only Tammy's are more tan. they both have long fingernails, and the smallest hands ever. they look like doll hands.
Julie: she also has really tiny hands, but hers are pudgy, like a 4 year old's hands.
noah: Noah has the dryest hands ever. its icky. they're reddish. his nails are always painted.
laila:has the biggest hands with the longest fingers ever. I've tried to braid them before. her middle fingers are double jointed.
evan:his hands are like dinner-plate sized. his fingers are the size of hotdogs. he could crush me with a pinky.

current music: saves the day--blindfolded

I havnt spoken to todd AKA "loom boy" in forever. today he IMed me while I was eating dinner, and had a conversation with my away message. look:
BizzarroTodd: hey babe
Auto response from DandEHighwayLass: mmmm meat
BizzarroTodd: meat is indeed delicious.
BizzarroTodd: im going to talk to your away message for fun
BizzarroTodd: so, that meat... good stuff
BizzarroTodd: speak to me, damnable computer!
BizzarroTodd: i crave your cold, heartless ode to the seared flesh of a slain beast!
BizzarroTodd: AUUUGH the descent into madness has begun!

awww I miss that boy. in other news, we had another successful band practice, this time with andrew there! sarah and I wrote a new kick ass song called bloody mary. Im about to add it to the lyrics, as well as her other untitled song. excitment! and boy updated the practice log! yay. I also took many pictures, including one of Sarah in a bikini with "I am Alice" written on her stomach. I'll get the photos developed and stick em on the site. this is so cool, we're really making progress. Pam just has to make it to a rehersal once so we can have a full band rehersal ^_^

current music:the pogues--tuesday morning

the walrus and the carpenter
hurrah for patience! the layout may look simple, but for html-impaired, it was brain-bleeding.anyway....I wrote a monologue last night. but its too long. David is trying to help me shorten it. bless him. its called Confessions of a schoolgirl slut: a monologue. it kinda goes all over the place with tagents. I wrote it like that so it would be easier for me to remember, because I always think that way, going off on tangents. I should write another song tonight. so I better go shower.

current music:saves that day--at your funeral

when you go to tower records, and browse through the fiction, you notice two books next to each other on a lower shelf. The Great Gatsby and Their Eyes Were Watching God. Both of these books are pretty good. In Their Eyes, there is a constant reference to a certain square toed individual. That's death. Our class debated it (and by debated it I mean drew pictures of square toes on the white board), but we could not decide why death would have square toes. In any case, the square toed man made a house call today. When he left, he took my rat with him. and I want her back.
It's funny, last night I had a dream about my rat. I had a dream that she and a kitten kept teaming up to get into my gecko's cage and try to eat her. Naturally, when I awoke, I was relieved that my gecko was quite safe, and that joplin was fast asleep in the cage below. I was pretty sure she was asleep...but she looked a little still. I decided not to check, because I was running late. Still, as soon as I got home, I ran to check on her. She wasn't sleeping. She was gone. So dad dug a hole, and I went up to get her. I tracked dirt in the house. We flipped her into the hole. I hate the way death looks. I went inside to sweep away the dirt I tracked. Now her cage is empty. I'm not quite sure what to do with it.

current music: the beatles--in my life

I'd like to think I was always a pretty imaginative child. I was never bored, because even when I was alone, I was far away doing something exciting. I would start these escapades over and over again in my mind, just so that every detail of them would be perfect. And I still do that. However now they arent an escape for fun, but an escape from pain. When I dream about what would be different, I always have to come to paiful realization all too soon, that these things aren't true, and probably never will be. That's awfully depressing. I miss my childhood. That's probably why I always talk about it. I'm subconciously trying to re-creat my blissfull days by talking about the old cartoons I used to watch. But now, even some of those memories are painful. I can't even think about Jem and the Holograms anymore without being pained, but thats because it will always and forever remind me of Jo. rockstar superheroooo.... Yeah. If only I could still walk outside and see a millions things to stimulate my mind, a thousand different adventures in 300 square feet. My mind has grown mundane. And that is increadibly saddening to me.

current music:bikini kill--rebel girl

Which Rock Chick Are You?

current music:siouxsie and the banshees--israel

My final draft was crap, but I didnt feel like putting in effort. So hopefully I wont do to horribly.I miss Becca and Miles and Rara.
Went out again tonight. Whats up with this? Liz doing stuff on the weekends? Unheard of man! Anyway, I went to the diner with Schlaf and Ari L, Ari R, Miri, Ami, Cunningham, Yedi....I think thats all. I had a milkshake and a caesar salad. I also went to tower records today and spent about an hour searching for the chelsea horror hotel by DeeDee Ramone. the guy said they had one copy left, and even aided by about three tower personnel people, we could not locate the goddamned book. The I saw that Richard Hell had a poetry book out. for 30 dollars. That seems awfully un-Richard Hellish. I mean, you write a book of poems, and then you sell it for 30 bucks? Where's the integrity in that? For some reason that just really bugged me. I'll probably end up buying it if I ever have 30 bucks to blow, because I adore Richard Hell, but that still is really irksome. Anyway, the seniors go to Israel tonight or tomorrow? or are they already on the plane now? Damn time difference. I have no idea...Well I'm done.

current music:Dar Williams--February

went out tonight and had very much of a blast. seth picked me up to go bowling. chloe was with us, and we went and picked up nadav, then schlaf. we met up with ari rabkin, ari levin and ilana at the bowling alley, and it was way too crowded, so we decided to go see a movie at rio. there wasnt anything anything we could agree on, so we went to the star deli by the kentlands theaters. I had belgian waffles and french fries.mmmmmm. then we went back to the bowling alley where ilana proceded to buy me things from quater machines that come in small plastic eggs. there were like five empty small plastic eggs on top of one of the machines and i was like ooh we should take those? she goes why? and im like so we can putthings in em! and she stuffed them all in her purse. you had to be there i guess. it was funny, i promise. anyway, we didnt feel like bowling, and as it started to get late, i made ari L. take us back to my house where we proceded to go through my family's record collection till we found all the joni mitchel albums. we only found three. then we just put them back. it was sort of a pointless excersize. but I love Ilana. I wish she'd hurry up and move like she keeps threatening to do.

current music:Dar Williams--the christians and the pagans

So I'm on the phone with the love of my life right now. thats shira miriam antonina lillion "deedee" pilarski. she called and we are talking. we've been talking for a long time. she told me about her new style "sophista-mod" and helped me put together an outfit. I just need to find shoes to go with it. oh and look....I finally have a new layout. and I made it MYSELF! the photo is ofme, taken by sarah goldstein, edited by moi in photoshop. hurrah for new layout, no more broken images.

current music:the indigo girls--ghost

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